~* Angst *~

I am so alone.
I can still sense the others,
See the colors, hear the laughter,
But the wires must be down.
I have been disconnected.

I have this ache
In my heart
And I can not make it go away.
Where did it come from?

I am empty inside,
Only this ache.
Will I ever learn?

My beautiful magical forest
Has disappeared.
Now, the dull black and brown of winter
Fits my mood.
Bleak and barren
The icy wind howls ... and it's me.

I feel blown away by this cold cruel wind.
I swirl and swish past hearts turn frigid.
I am all alone.

I am drowning in my own misery,
Reaching out for anyone
To save me from this ocean of despair.

Dante's Inferno was nothing compared
To this woefull angst that I have made
From my thoughts alone.

Worry and anxiety throw me once more
Into the depths of despondency.
The walls are unscalable.
All hope has fled.
I wallow in the melancholy
Of this murky colorless mess.

Can anyone break the ice
That holds my heart imprisoned,
Imprisoned with thoughts
Of what could have been?
Will the Spring thaw this frigid pain?

The warm sunshine of all love
Is hidden in the shadows of loss.
All the beauty of summer gone,
Will it ever return?
Or am I to live forever in this
Cruel gloom?

I ache for the the new birth of Spring,
The sprouting time with its shoots of hope,
The bright colors of new lives born,
My magical forest surrounding me once more
In its tender, hopeful embrace.

I long for hope,
For love,
For sunshine again.
Please, someone
Find the break
And connect me again.

And yet one morning as tired eyes opened,
The golden warmth of the rising sun
Slipped through the pains.
That bright light from without
Lit the small light that had always burned inside
And it grew and grew and grew
Until the amazing wonder of life and love
Opened me up again

No matter how dark the night,
No matter what despair we think we have found,
The light never really goes out.
You only have to open your eyes once more.

The light is stronger than the dark
And hope and love never leave you.
Just open your heart and let your light shine free.
Be the light and laughter and love for all to share.

~*~ Never the end ~*~